I lost it on the way out of Rite Aid today because I saw a Papyrus display and my thoughts were something like
Zack remembers that I like those
I should look to see if there are any cool ones for upcoming holidays or just to have on hand
Wait I don’t care about holidays because Zack is dead and what is the point of celebrating anything ever again
There was a Papyrus store near his one doctor’s office in NYC. He encouraged me to go in but I said let’s just be a few minutes early for your appointment we’ll go in next time
July 19 was supposed to be next time.
Was supposed to be the appointment where we started to get a better idea that treatment was working and that would hopefully put us at ease. Help reassure us on prognosis
Instead July 19 was a month from the last time I saw him conscious. Fuck the universe.