comparison is

the thief of a thing that’s not in my production vocabulary anymore

I’m a disorganized disaster

I’m just comparing to my previous level of pretending to be competent at things. not everyone else

I get sad when I compare against other people lately because I’m simultaneously jealous of their functioning or just getting to go through the world in ignorance, and then hopeless for them that they don’t get to be this abjectly sad and that they have stupid priorities